Remembering

Mind bloated with too many thoughts,

Perspective and reason are lost…

Looking for normalcy while the snake plots

I’ve began building without counting the cost.

 

My eyes are failing, lend me Your gaze,

Lend me Your strength, my hands are trembling,

Remember the length of my days,

Lend me your thoughts, mine are transgressing…

 

Remember me according to Your kindness, not my faults,

You know I’m flawed and greedy for Your kindness.

I’m scared and hidden bits of me in vaults,

Selfishly trying to save myself from total blindness.

 

I forgot to remember You’re faithful until the end,

That You begin and don’t stop until You finish,

That You give me more grace than I can ever spend,

Regardless how darkness expands, Your light doesn’t diminish.

 

Though the mountains may depart, and the hills be removed,

Your covenant of peace will stand for those fighting Your wars,

You’ll never break off a reed that is bruised,

Regardless the odds, You win on behalf of those that are Yours.

 

I want to bargain with You and promise You a thousand things,

Selfishly wanting You to do my will, relief I cajole,

Forgetting You’re the One holding my strings,

That I know and see in part while You see the whole.

 

I’ll submit to Your will, this time not grudgingly,

I’ll trust the love that brought me this far,

I won’t twist Your words like the snake, cunningly,

I’ll give this time to heal and turn into a scar.

 by Cristina Pop